I have noticed planning never actually works anyways!
Sometimes what you plan isn’t really what is going to happen. But I am gonna tell you how I have gotten through some really unexpected changes lately.
Earlier this month I had sat down and budgeted out our entire next 2 months with the income we were expecting to have! And then…. the unexpected happens! Here’s the whole story.
Recently my husband was working for a family taking care of their kids and cleaning their house and all that stuff, making some pretty good money! So we were okay! And then…. one day they just come home and told him they didn’t need him anymore… totally unfair right?! Right! They took away everything overnight, they pulled our feet out from underneath us with no compassion not even enough money to get us through the month.
I just graduated cosmetology school and have slowly been building my clientele and that takes some serious time! Which is great, when you have that. But unfortunately we don’t have that time right now. So what are we doing now?
My husband and I are people of faith, yet in moments like this… it is hard to believe it will be okay sometimes. Sometimes, regardless of how much you want to believe, it just hurts! And that is okay! Right now, we are in a season of disappointment and feeling like we were left in the dirt.
We are staring hopelessness in the face. And all we can do is Pray. That’s it that’s all we can do. We are obviously applying for jobs and working towards a goal together but what seems to be the only thing getting us through is prayer. Everyday, we keep declaring; who we are, we are children of God. Who God is, He is faithful, and never forsakes us. We remind ourselves, even the lilies of the field are clothed with such beauty that Saul in all of his glory doesn’t compare. We remind ourselves that if our father takes such good care of them, he will always take much better care of his children whom he loves!
Even when we feel we have nothing, we are not lacking. We are starting at hopelessness telling it, who my God is! Telling hopelessness to back down and bow before my God.
I keep looking at this budget that I planned on MY terms and on what I thought was going to be reality. Because of the security we had in OURSELVES. God told my husband the day he lost his job earlier that morning, “you say I am a good father, so when will you truly believe that and trust me?” We looked at each other and said, “wow, well then… God is on the move. He will always come through and he will be who holds our future.” And even when that seems like it was a false statement, my God is true! We have had exactly enough money to cover all of our bills for the end of this month and even more left over. This morning I was contacted about a job I applied for and my clients are coming in this week as well! We know, without a doubt that our God is on the move! And we know, that all good things come from him! In his timing! Because if it were a second before or after his perfect timing, it would no longer be perfect.
We are not hopeless! We are not lacking! We have a father who sees us, who loves us, and who wants to watch us succeed! We have a God who moves mountains to reach his children and we have a Savior who is fighting for us! And that is the hope we must hold onto! That he is our father and he works all for the good of those who love him and who are called according to his great will.
No matter my plan, my God always makes my path straight and in him I am lacking nothing. For the testing of my faith brings perseverance and I will be made complete in Him.
You will get through whatever struggle is before you. You have a good good father who takes compassion on his children. Compassion so strong he will literally do ANYTHING to change your circumstances. For he is Good!